Thursday, November 14, 2019

November 2019

In which we make our way from the United States to the Caribbean an d Elsie decides that she has done enough offshore passages.

We started November on Greta and Gary’s dock in Norfolk Virginia, waiting on weather to take us to Bermuda, a staging post for our winter in the Caribbean.  Apart from our northward voyage in the spring, when we had hitched a lift from the Gulf Stream up to Norfolk and then followed the coast to Block Island, it was our first major offshore passage since Bermuda – Antigua of nearly a year before, when we had a horrendous start which had tested Elsie’s nerves.  For several days, it had looked as though Saturday, 2nd would be a good time to leave.   Winds should be generally light and anything over 15 knots should be from behind the beam. It looked as though we might have to motor for a fair way but this was worth it to get an easy passage and rebuild confidence.  So, on Friday, we got a lift from Greta, topped up the propane bottle and did our provisioning, including a dozen cases of beer.  We also topped up the water.  Fuel was at 90%.  We left the dock at 0945 and motored down the Elizabeth River to a place where we could install the wind steering rudder (it makes manoeuvring in confined spaces tricky).  Preventers were rigged; safety lines attached; all loose objects stowed away.  We were ready.
Elsie setting off in  hope.

As expected, we had to continue motoring down the Chesapeake.  At 14:00, the wind had risen sufficiently to get the sails out and motor-assist. By 18:00, with a N’ly F2, we were able to progress under sail alone.  The forecast was for the wind to back a little and increase to F4, with maybe gusts to 20 knots.  This seemed to be working out when Elsie came on watch and we put in 2 reefs so that she would have a comfortable night.  The Cape Hatteras area is notorious for rapid weather changes and, once again, it proved our undoing.  The wind continued to increase and by 02:00 it was F6, with gusts to F7.  We put the 3rd reef in but Elsie was shaken and, at change of watch, suggested we return.  I looked again at the forecast.  It continued to show that, if anything, we would have too little rather than too much wind and I made the decision to continue, in the hope that a few days of lighter, favourable, winds would get us back on track.  I seemed to vindicated that day.  We kept the 3rd reef in and just used variable amounts of genoa to be comfortable as the wind varied between 10 and 20 knots.  That evening, with lighter winds, the batteries needed charging, so I started the engine.  Twenty minutes later, the over-temperature alarm sounded and we had to shut it down.  We carry a portable generator for just such situations, so I got that out and gave us an hour’s worth of charge to see us through the night.  Fortunately, the winds continued to be light, so I was able to work on the engine on Monday.  Opened up the sea water pump:  3 of six blades missing from the impeller, which was only 100 running hours old.  Replaced.  Engine run.  No flow.  The missing blades would have migrated to the heat exchanger, restricting flow, but I wouldn’t expect them to block it completely.  Nonetheless, I opened it up (managing to catch most of my new coolant as I did so).  Yes, the blades were there.  Re-assemble; re-run; no flow.  I took each pipe off in turn to blow it though and found that the one from the intake to the filter was blocked.  There were a few little mussel shells in the filter, which gave a clue.  With some trepidation, I disconnected the pipe from the sea-cock; gentle trickle.  Poke with screwdriver; stronger flow.  Re-connect; re-run and, hurrah, proper flow.  Another bunch of shells in the filter. 

The wind now started to veer round.  NNE, NE, ENE.  We put the wind on the port bow and followed it round.  This, unfortunately, meant that we headed in the direction from which the wind had been blowing a couple of hours before, with residual swell causing us to slam into it which both slowed us down and made it very uncomfortable.  Eventually, it veered enough that we were able to tack, head East and have an easier motion although we had to remain hard on the wind on this new tack for the rest of the day and through the night. Up to this point, the forecast had been for very light winds, but from ahead, for the last 100 miles, meaning that we could not arrive in daylight on Thursday, so we had no reason to hurry as I preferred not to enter harbour in the dark.  Our new forecast on Wednesday evening, however, showed that, if we made good speed, we could arrive with an hour to spare so we piled on the canvas and proceeded.  Once again, it was Elsie who caught the, un-forecast, gusts in the small hours.  With too much sail up, she had a stumble, hurting her ankle.  The wind did die at mid-day and we motor-sailed, then motored, the rest of the way.  That afternoon Elsie broke the news that she had decided not to continue doing something which she had come to hate – long offshore passages.  Did this include the next leg down to St Martin?  Yes.  Given the experience of the last few days, this was not surprising but it was still a blow.   We had both known that the decision was coming but hoped that we could make it down to our Winter cruising ground and plan future voyaging with the need for long passages.  We did make it to St Georges before sunset and proceeded to the customs dock to check in, made easy as they had our details from before and had already completed much of the paperwork ready for us.  We then motored across to the south side of the bay, poured large rums and breathed a sigh of relief. 

Friday was spent tidying up from the voyage, licking wounds and tying to work out what to do next.  While Bermuda is nice, it has limited appeal and we definitely didn’t want to spend the winter there; Elsie’s mind was firm that she was not going to make the next passage; I was half tempted to do it solo but that was firmly vetoed.  We ran through people we knew who might be tempted to sail with me and sent invitations but nothing doing there.  The Cruising Association have a ‘crewing service’ where they match people wanting sailing experience with those needing crew.  I framed an ‘advert’ for this and read through many profiles of possible people, finally sending invitations to the six most likely.  Over the next 24 hours, I got 3 responses: 2 would or could not help; 1 was interested but wanted more details.

On Saturday, Elsie opened her heart on the internet, posting the same message as on the blog, both to general friends and on the OCC page.  The result was rapid: huge support, both emotional and practical.  She was offered a home to ‘look after’ in Cornwall for the Winter; we were recommended people who might be interested in helping me and friends from the summer said they would try to work out how they could re-arrange their own lives to help.  By Monday, we had a firm plan:  Elsie would fly back to the U.K. and a Scandinavian couple, Mads and Lotta, who had hauled their own boat, would join me and sail down to Antigua.  After that, it just required details.

Life continued on board.  We managed a little trip ashore on Saturday.  On Sunday, we moved to the anchorage on the North side, as the wind was forecast to shift and increase.  A good move as, by evening it was starting to blow.  This didn’t prevent us from going ashore to the White Horse pub for sun-downers, including an introduction to ‘Dark and Stormy’ cocktails – very appropriate to the weather outside.  There were several other cruising couples there, all of whom reported getting ‘beaten up’ on the crossing, which made us feel a little better.   Amongst them were Gino and Carolyn, from Andiamo.  They had been about 12 hours behind us and had been struck by lightning, taking out their navigation lights, their wind indicator, their fridge and their autopilot, meaning that they had to hand-steer for over 24 hours. So, just maybe, we were right to press on.  Monday was a maintenance day:  While Elsie did the laundry, I cleaned the carburettor of our little generator. It had been running a little rough and was found to have dirt in the main jet.  I was very pleased that it ran well afterwards.  Not so pleased that fuel was leaking but a bit more torque on the bowl bolt sorted that.  We managed to get some water from the dinghy club, where Elsie was doing the laundry and were back to nearly full tanks.  More maintenance on Tuesday.  Since getting our ‘new’ windlass, we have slowly been accumulating twist in the anchor chain.  This might be because the chain is getting worn or, maybe, the gypsy (which is shaped to lift the chain) is the wrong size.  As a temporary fix, I pulled all the chain out of the locker and took, maybe, 30 -40 turns out of it, re-marking it in the meantime.  Elsie spent hours researching flights and, eventually, booking them to take her home on Sunday, via New York and Paris.  In the afternoon, we removed to mainsail lazy bag, which needed a new zip.  On Wednesday, we took that ashore for repair then bussed into Hamilton, the Capital.  A little shop browsing; a long visit to a gallery that imports carvings from Zimbabwe and a shop at a supermarket that has a better selection, and better prices, than that available in St Georges.  Gino and Carolyn came over for sun-downer drinks.  .  Thursday was spent on little jobs, a long walk, then collecting the lazybag and re-fitting it.

On Friday, Mads and Lotta, my crew for the trip to Antugua, arrived.  I bussed round to the airport to collect them and we also bussed back, though the driver wasn’t too happy at us bringing luggage on board.  Saturday was forecast to be wet and windy but we ventured ashore in the morning to do the walking tour of the town.  Quite entertaining, though a little hammed up.  Mads and I got roped into the ‘ducking the gossip’ drama but little got done in the afternoon.  Then on Sunday it was time for Elsie to leave.  The mid-day flight to New York had been fully booked which meant she had to catch the 0830 one so we booked a taxi for 07:00.  She then had a 12 hour wait at JFK airport and a further connection through CDG at Paris before getting to Glasgow on Monday afternoon. Not an enviable trip.  Mads, Lotta and I went for a walk in the afternoon.  We were just about ready on board, apart for the usual wait on weather so on Monday we went for a little sight-seeing trip.

Crystal cave

Mads and Lotta in St Georges

First to the crystal cave, which was very nice but rather over priced at $24 per head; then into Hamilton to look for a bikini for Lotta (not available), buy rum, a little walk round the town and then a major dry goods shop before returning to Ruby.  At 5, we went over to Andiamo for return drinks with Gino and Carolyn, who were still waiting on auto-pilot parts.  The weather forecast was still holding good for a Wednesday afternoon departure so, on Tuesday, we headed over to the fuel dock to top up with diesel and water.  Mads and Lotta then departed for a longer sight-seeing trip, down to the Naval Dockyard then back through Hamilton to buy fresh food.  Mads cooked some excellent burgers for supper.  We would have savoured them even more had we known how long it was going to be before our next good cooked meal.

Wednesday started windy, as forecast but we ventured ashore for a walk in the morning and stopped off to check out and collect our duty-free rum.  Lunch, then at 14:45, picked up anchor and ventured out.  The wind was 20 knots, as forecast, but had not veered as much as we expected and was on the beam rather than from behind.  I wanted to head away from it but Mads had plotted a blue line to Antigua and, on his watch stuck to it.  Just as on our previous departure from here, once we were south of the protecting banks we encountered a very nasty steep, short sea, with lots of spray and occasional green water over the deck.  Lotta suffered badly and even Mads couldn’t face food.  I couldn’t be bothered to cook just for myself so just had a sandwich for supper.  Lotta was too ill to go below and spent the first 24 hours occupying one side of the cockpit while Mads and I kept alternate watches from the other.  Thursday continued windy though, with the wind now coming from behind, it was more comfortable.  Lotta was able to go down that evening, though was still not up to eating, so I just made bacon and egg for myself and Mads. 
Lotta crocheted a hat for Mads en route


There was a tropical storm, Sebastian, to the south of us.  It was forecast to head east before we got to its latitude but, to be sure, we continued with the wind on the starboard quarter through the night to give it plenty of room. While downloading weather on Friday morning I tried to make a cup of coffee.  The gas would not light which was odd, because I could smell it.  Then the gas alarm sounded.  Everything off and investigate.  The flexible hose which had been fitted, at great expense, in Annapolis had broken.  This was very bad news.  It could not be repaired on board and we had no other means of cooking so it was going to be cold food from here to Antigua, still 5 days away.  Even worse were the potential consequences:  Propane is heavier than air and will sink to the bilges.  Unlike in a house or caravan there are no holes for it to escape so there it will remain.  Any spark could cause an explosion and fire which, on a small boat in the middle of the ocean would probably be fatal for all on board.  I opened as many hatches as was prudent in the prevailing conditions, removed the floor boards to assist ventilation and used the hand bilge pump to try to pump the gas out.  Elsie was pestered with many messages through the morning to advise her of the problem and ask her to try to find a solution for our arrival.

Weather downloaded, we could see that Sebastian was indeed clearing to the east, so we gybed round to put the wind on the port quarter to start making ground to the east.  After the afternoon forecast, I finally had confidence to shake out he third reef for the first time since departure.  On Saturday morning, this was followed by the second, as the wind was forecast to slowly veer round to the east and remain below 15 knots all the way to Antigua.  There was a sad ceremony at mid-day as the fridge was emptied and all our fresh meat, which could now not be cooked, was thrown overboard to feed the sharks.  Sunday dawned clear with, as forecast, an easterly 15 knot wind, giving us perfect sailing.  Unfortunately, by late afternoon showers were appearing and we had to reduce sail again.  At 8 PM, the wind unexpectedly veered to south and remained there all night, forcing us to motor.  It relented a little on Monday morning and we were able to sail, albeit slowly as it rarely got above 8 knots. By 16:00 it had veered again and we motor-sailed for several hours.  At 23:00 it finally co-operated and we were able to sail again. By 08:00 on Tuesday it had settled in the east and we were able to continue our gentle curve towards our destination.  Convinced, 24 hours later, that it was going to stay just behind the beam at 10-12 knots, I finally took out the last reef.  If we managed to average 5.5 knots, we could make Jolly harbour before sunset, have a restful night and check in the following morning. The wind accepted the challenge and increased to 14, then 16 knots.  By the time we were in the shelter of Barbuda, we were making 8 knots over a flat sea with 18 knots of wind.  Great fun.
Predictwind tracking from Bermuda (arrowed) to Antigua.

We arrived at Jolly Harbour at 14:00 and went straight to the customs dock.  I had managed to remember the password for the local clearance system and was done in 20 minutes.  By that time, Trevor, a local mechanic, was aboard looking at the cooker.  Elsie had researched him and I had phoned on our approach.  30 minutes later, he had fitted a new hose.  We had a cooker!  I had, however, promised a meal ashore, so we went out to anchor did a quick tidy up, broached my new bottle of Goslings dark rum and had a celebratory ‘Dark n Stormy’ apiece, before dinghying back for our first hot meal in a week.
3 dark n stormys
On Thursday morning, we managed to find, and book, flights to take Mads and Lotta back to the states for a week later.  They then took the laundry ashore while I did a bit more tidying up and relaxing.  .  Light winds were forecast for Friday and Saturday so we had a gentle programme.  Friday, we had a little provisioning run then shifted anchor a couple of miles, to do a little snorkelling round the five islands reefs then a walk ashore in the afternoon.  Saturday, we went a little further north, to Pinching Bay, more snorkelling, then back to Jolly in the afternoon to book out and intended to top up on fuel and water but, as the fuel station closed at 15:00 missed out on that.  We finished the month back at anchor off Jolly Harbour, cleared and ready to go down to Guadeloupe to change crew back to the usual establishment.
Ruby at anchor off Jolly


Monthly stats:

Over ground  1591
Logged          1785


Saturday, November 9, 2019

Another fine mess - by Elsie


Well it’s happened, I’ve lost my nerve. No more long distant sailing for me. I’ve made a pact with Neptune sealed with a large tot of our best rum. He rules the waves but will let me sail if I don’t impinge much on his territory.
Do you know how much it has taken to say these words? Anger. Tears. Anguish. Feeling a failure. Then realism, knowing I can’t do it anymore. Being thrown around a boat for days on end. Not being able to eat or sleep or read or listen to music. Taking 20 minutes to go to the head. The simplest task taking forever. Being so terrified that I can’t move. Its no fun anymore.
Yes, it was a bad passage, Norfolk, Virginia to Bermuda. The weather which was downloaded every 12 hours was never the same. In fact, sometimes the weather was coming from the opposite direction it forecast. Each time our plan changed. We have to go north, we have to go south, we need to keep hard on the wind, we need to come way off the wind. Before we started, we were worried about the amount of motoring we might have to do. No need to worry. We motored hard to get into St George before nightfall and that was about that.
Am I failure? Am I letting myself and other people down?
I am definitely letting Lionel down. He is scurrying around trying to find crew for the passage from Bermuda down to the Caribbean. I’m letting myself down. No one likes to admit they have limits, reaching that limit is a shock, reaching that limit in the Atlantic Ocean is terrifying. Failure? What a horrible word. I feel a failure. After 4 years and 35000nm I should be able to cope with most things but I can’t. But then, reality hits. Through the Med, I’ve crossed the Atlantic, I’ve sailed through the Caribbean, I’ve made it up the east coast to Canada and back down without mishap. Is that being a failure, or am I trying to make excuses for myself?
I know people change, their outlooks, their tolerances, their goals. We cast off from Cork in August 2015 with all the expectations of who knows what. We had sold up and packed everything we wanted to keep in a shipping container. We didn’t know how long this adventure was going to take but we were going on it. Sometimes we spoke about round the world, sometimes it was a year in the Med, sometime it was crossing the Atlantic and coming back to Scotland in the next season. The world was our oyster and we were going somewhere. Lionel had just finished treatment for cancer and he was just happy to be alive. We knew we had the check ups and maybe subsequent treatment to face but life was good. However, we were realistic. We spoke about giving up sailing and finding a new adventure if this one did not work. The agreement was if one of us was miserable the sailing stopped and we moved on. We went on our merry way.
Now I have to face the reality. I am miserable doing off shore long distance sailing. I am quite happy on short hops and day sailing but I can’t face the day after day off shore. There was tense 24 hours when I faced my concerns and told Lionel. He felt let down, very let down and so he should. He had asked me a couple of weeks back if I was sure I was OK to go offshore to Bermuda then down to St Martin. I said yes, I was looking at it as a challenge. In my defence I did suggest turning back after 24 hours. We already had contingency plans, as all good sailors always have, Morehead, work our way down the coast, jump to Bahamas then head to DR and Cuba but we went on and now we are anchored in St George, not having a clue where to turn to. Somehow, we have to get down to the Caribbean. Just 7 days sailing to St Martaan then I will be happy to continue amongst the islands to Cuba then up the coast to Nova Scotia. Seven days and I cannot face it.
Why am I telling you all this? Why am I not hanging my head in shame and hiding myself away from REAL sailors’ gazes? The reason, simple. We all share our good times, our land marks, our triumphs but when it comes to the end its always “the boat is up for sale”. Yes, there is reasons given some of the time, goals have been met, grandchildren arriving, injuries or just moving on to bigger adventures. I have never read someone saying enough is enough. I have never seen the words “I failed”. I know I am not the first sailor ever to give up off shore sailing because they have lost their nerve and I will definitely not be the last. Its something not to be celebrated but it’s a reality in our lives and people like me should not be looked at as any less sailors because we don’t do it anymore.
I am not as brave as I thought I was
I have let the love of my life down terribly
Life will never be the same again

“Well, that’s a fine mess you’ve got us into”, in the words of Laurel and Hardy.